When I heard of Dr. Lorna Breen who took her own life on April 26, I thought that I should speak up for this woman and everyone before her and after her, and even for me.
I want to be able to write about some of what a human being feels when thoughts of suicide invade her/his mind. I’m one of those… and I have been thinking about it for quite some time; The nagging feeling to depart is haunting me but I’ve been fighting it, because I’m a coward! Yes you heard me, I’m a coward and I’m attached to something called “life”, whatever that means.
Few weeks ago, I was about to pull the plug, figuratively speaking, but what stopped me is a note I received by email, from someone I hold dear to my heart.
He said to me what every person standing on a proverbial cliff, ready to take a plunge wants to hear. That we’re not alone… In his own words, he wrote:
“.. I know you are feeling lonely… and that you’re all alone in this world, but you’re not…
I know you are feeling trapped…
I know you feel that you are stuck in a rut and that time is going too fast, or too slow…
I know that you feel sick and tired because you think you don’t fit in…
I know that you want to live a happier life but it’s been a constant uphill battle for you…
I know you lost everything you worked so hard for…
I know that you are trying to prove yourself to others. But I know you shouldn’t even try..
